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happy/sad last night
Nov. 3rd, 2009 09:25 amhappy:
i got to have a date with the tallens. i will eat them up, i love them so. had ourselves some tasty tasty great waters, and then over to the lowry lab to catch the PWYC performance of "chemical imbalance." there were things i really really liked about it, and things i didn't, but i laughed out loud quite a few times. meaning i was entertained. meaning it was a success.
really, it was just nice to spend time with friends. <3
sad:
i came home to find that the building people finally tried to turn my heat on. (they haven't succeeded yet.) i was a little embarassed about the state of my apartment, so i cleaned. without taking an allergy pill first. meaning i went to bed with swollen-shut sinuses.
now, i'm a shallow breather at the best of times. but i also tend to clench my jaw in my sleep. i do try to relax, let my mouth hang open, ignore the drool. but, innevitably, i fall asleep and clamp right up. and let me tell you, the human brain is an amazing thing. because it WILL save your life. except...when i can't breathe through my nose and i shut my mouth, it doesn't take the easy road and save me by making me involuntarily open my mouth. no. it saves me by WAKING ME UP EVERY TIME. then, pair this will half-awake logic wherin i'm afraid i will suffocate to death in my sleep, and i've got a ripe trigger for anxiety...which just further constricts the muscles around my lungs and keeps me from breathing well even when my damn mouth is open.
i really don't know how much sleep i got. probably more than i think. but probably less than is healthy, and all of it riddled with unrest.
it's time to start thinking about allergy shots and copious ammounts of xanax.
i got to have a date with the tallens. i will eat them up, i love them so. had ourselves some tasty tasty great waters, and then over to the lowry lab to catch the PWYC performance of "chemical imbalance." there were things i really really liked about it, and things i didn't, but i laughed out loud quite a few times. meaning i was entertained. meaning it was a success.
really, it was just nice to spend time with friends. <3
sad:
i came home to find that the building people finally tried to turn my heat on. (they haven't succeeded yet.) i was a little embarassed about the state of my apartment, so i cleaned. without taking an allergy pill first. meaning i went to bed with swollen-shut sinuses.
now, i'm a shallow breather at the best of times. but i also tend to clench my jaw in my sleep. i do try to relax, let my mouth hang open, ignore the drool. but, innevitably, i fall asleep and clamp right up. and let me tell you, the human brain is an amazing thing. because it WILL save your life. except...when i can't breathe through my nose and i shut my mouth, it doesn't take the easy road and save me by making me involuntarily open my mouth. no. it saves me by WAKING ME UP EVERY TIME. then, pair this will half-awake logic wherin i'm afraid i will suffocate to death in my sleep, and i've got a ripe trigger for anxiety...which just further constricts the muscles around my lungs and keeps me from breathing well even when my damn mouth is open.
i really don't know how much sleep i got. probably more than i think. but probably less than is healthy, and all of it riddled with unrest.
it's time to start thinking about allergy shots and copious ammounts of xanax.
