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yesterday was like a theatre explosion. i got some details for a short play festival i'm directing for, i begged to do some workshop readings with a production company i love, signed up for six months of ensemble theatre workshops, booked time off work this summer to take an intensive masterclass, and was asked to step into a role that would require me to memorize and perform classic text in a week's time (couldn't do that last one, unfortunately).
and that all happened before 10am. this does not include the work i did for my own theatre over the lunch hour or the pay what you can performance later that evening.
this happens all the damn time. my year stretches out before me and i'm all like, what's next? am i going to wane and be bored? and then some lovely things pop up and surprise me. it looks like another year of hopes for good work on the horizon. in a city that is loaded with theatre, sometimes it feels like everyone is filling in the spaces before i get there. but there's always some new opportunity, and i'm so lucky that i don't have to settle for scraps (which i wouldn't do; i'd rather take time off than work on something i don't find fulfilling). it's nice to be able to choose my projects, and enjoy what i do.
and it always surprises me when people take a chance on me or trust me enough to take something on, even if they've never seen me do that thing before. it's not that i don't think i'm capable of challenges, it's just that i don't understand what i have displayed that makes others think i am. but. that is not for me to question. it is for me to rise up to.
okay. i just need to stop being insecure, say thank you to the universe, and move on. i've got work to do.
and that all happened before 10am. this does not include the work i did for my own theatre over the lunch hour or the pay what you can performance later that evening.
this happens all the damn time. my year stretches out before me and i'm all like, what's next? am i going to wane and be bored? and then some lovely things pop up and surprise me. it looks like another year of hopes for good work on the horizon. in a city that is loaded with theatre, sometimes it feels like everyone is filling in the spaces before i get there. but there's always some new opportunity, and i'm so lucky that i don't have to settle for scraps (which i wouldn't do; i'd rather take time off than work on something i don't find fulfilling). it's nice to be able to choose my projects, and enjoy what i do.
and it always surprises me when people take a chance on me or trust me enough to take something on, even if they've never seen me do that thing before. it's not that i don't think i'm capable of challenges, it's just that i don't understand what i have displayed that makes others think i am. but. that is not for me to question. it is for me to rise up to.
okay. i just need to stop being insecure, say thank you to the universe, and move on. i've got work to do.
