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part 1: the serious edition.
Feb. 1st, 2011 10:24 amDay Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot.
wow. could this be a more difficult topic? i feel like i'm constantly thinking of 20,000 things, both generally and specifically, and they change day to day. i assume this means things i worry or daydream about. i guess i'll just bore into my brain and take a core sample of the moment.
1. i worry about my time management. kind of. do you know how many movies and plays i want to see? how many friends i'd like to hang out with? when will i have time to get the books read that i want to? to get my lines memorized? in order to get better at the mandolin and accordion, i should be practicing every day. and if only i had half an hour of every day to get my body back in shape! at least! and my cat in window piece is crawling along. i'd like to finish it before my tastes change and i don't like it anymore. not to mention get to playing spirit tracks which i bought over a year ago, but have vowed to finish my replay of twilight princess first. which i don't have time to do. i spend so much of my time at work and on the road. that last part is nice, because i have time to burn though podcasts. and rehearsal takes up a lot of my week. and, of course, i want my derek time. i don't even know when i will see my parents next, and they only live an hour away. i fill my life too full. but i guess that's better than being bored...
2. i think about my money matters. my loan repayment. saving up for a car. it seems that i will never learn and always calculate towards the positive, the goal. but expenses crawl out of the cracks so that i am always disappointed. at the same time, i am thankful that i have learned to live within the means that my paycheck provides. i am comfortable and happy in that zone, 'though some deem it poor. i have learned to like/need/want what i can afford. so, for me, not poor at all.
3. i think about derek. how can i not? his presence in my life takes all the things that already make me happy and puts a silver plating on it. and it twinkles in the sun.
4. i worry about my friends. a lot. when they are having troubles with their jobs or in finding one. when they are sick. or sad. or heartbroken. or have the threat of heartbreak looming. i feel helpless when they get into a period of their life where all is doom and gloom and cynicism...and there's nothing i can do or say. it stops my brain dead in my tracks and i will often sit at my desk, head in hands, and think though my worry and sigh.
5. i only think about my job when i am there. and even then, i do not think about it much, other than the things that i like about it: the routine, the people, its assistance to the life i really live outside of it, and how stressless it really is compared to many jobs. overall, though, i wish it didn't take up so much of my day.
6. i think about theatre. the shows i'm working on, the ones i'd like to, the companies i respect, how i can improve, and what i learn with each production. i am mostly thankful that my negative or unproductive experiences are very few and that people seem to like working with me; that i have something to offer.
7. finally, food. what's for lunch today? will i have time to make a run for dinner before rehearsal? will i have time and supplies to pack a lunch and/or dinner for the following day? what does my body REALLY want to eat and have i had that too many times this week? am i getting enough produce in me? enough water? if i'm eating that sirloin sammich for lunch, i'd better get something more veggie-related for dinner. and, happily, i often have to ask myself if i'd rather have a snack of chocolate or tomatoes and cheese...and the tomatoes have just as much chance of winning my craving as the chocolate. i neither deny myself nor overindulge. my balance is becoming much more effortless. i could always be healthier, but i am far far far from ruining myself. go me.
UPCOMING:
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four things you want in a romantic partner.
Day Eight: Three of your favourite possessions.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life or yourself right now.
Day Ten: One confession
wow. could this be a more difficult topic? i feel like i'm constantly thinking of 20,000 things, both generally and specifically, and they change day to day. i assume this means things i worry or daydream about. i guess i'll just bore into my brain and take a core sample of the moment.
1. i worry about my time management. kind of. do you know how many movies and plays i want to see? how many friends i'd like to hang out with? when will i have time to get the books read that i want to? to get my lines memorized? in order to get better at the mandolin and accordion, i should be practicing every day. and if only i had half an hour of every day to get my body back in shape! at least! and my cat in window piece is crawling along. i'd like to finish it before my tastes change and i don't like it anymore. not to mention get to playing spirit tracks which i bought over a year ago, but have vowed to finish my replay of twilight princess first. which i don't have time to do. i spend so much of my time at work and on the road. that last part is nice, because i have time to burn though podcasts. and rehearsal takes up a lot of my week. and, of course, i want my derek time. i don't even know when i will see my parents next, and they only live an hour away. i fill my life too full. but i guess that's better than being bored...
2. i think about my money matters. my loan repayment. saving up for a car. it seems that i will never learn and always calculate towards the positive, the goal. but expenses crawl out of the cracks so that i am always disappointed. at the same time, i am thankful that i have learned to live within the means that my paycheck provides. i am comfortable and happy in that zone, 'though some deem it poor. i have learned to like/need/want what i can afford. so, for me, not poor at all.
3. i think about derek. how can i not? his presence in my life takes all the things that already make me happy and puts a silver plating on it. and it twinkles in the sun.
4. i worry about my friends. a lot. when they are having troubles with their jobs or in finding one. when they are sick. or sad. or heartbroken. or have the threat of heartbreak looming. i feel helpless when they get into a period of their life where all is doom and gloom and cynicism...and there's nothing i can do or say. it stops my brain dead in my tracks and i will often sit at my desk, head in hands, and think though my worry and sigh.
5. i only think about my job when i am there. and even then, i do not think about it much, other than the things that i like about it: the routine, the people, its assistance to the life i really live outside of it, and how stressless it really is compared to many jobs. overall, though, i wish it didn't take up so much of my day.
6. i think about theatre. the shows i'm working on, the ones i'd like to, the companies i respect, how i can improve, and what i learn with each production. i am mostly thankful that my negative or unproductive experiences are very few and that people seem to like working with me; that i have something to offer.
7. finally, food. what's for lunch today? will i have time to make a run for dinner before rehearsal? will i have time and supplies to pack a lunch and/or dinner for the following day? what does my body REALLY want to eat and have i had that too many times this week? am i getting enough produce in me? enough water? if i'm eating that sirloin sammich for lunch, i'd better get something more veggie-related for dinner. and, happily, i often have to ask myself if i'd rather have a snack of chocolate or tomatoes and cheese...and the tomatoes have just as much chance of winning my craving as the chocolate. i neither deny myself nor overindulge. my balance is becoming much more effortless. i could always be healthier, but i am far far far from ruining myself. go me.
UPCOMING:
Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done.
Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever).
Day Seven: Four things you want in a romantic partner.
Day Eight: Three of your favourite possessions.
Day Nine: Two images that describe your life or yourself right now.
Day Ten: One confession
