it's like 'love, actually,' except it's 'apathy, perhaps.'

i need something, and i don't know what. you know those moments where you're all, something's missing? not like i forgot something, but like i should be eating something or drinking another cup of coffee. but i'm not hungry. although, with tech week going on for marisol, another cup of coffee wouldn't be a bad idea.

i have a little work to do, but nothing that needs to be done in the next hour. generally, i like to get on anything that comes across my desk, because then it doesn't build and i don't feel guilty about fkn around. but i just don't want to get up and away from my heater fan.

i've had this window open for an hour and just can't find anything to write about. i'm happy with marisol, my knitting project is coming along, i am enjoying the change of the seasons, all seems right with the world.

so what is getting at me? (it's not the boy thing, that was yesterday. i'm not missing any of that today.) something's...missing. even if i was at home i'd be at a loss. i don't want to read or play video games or even be on the internets. i have no reason to be bored and yet it seems my body just wants to dive into the boredom pool. weird.

you know what? it might be movies. i just asked myself, if i had no deadlines or plans today what i might do? and i think i'd like to just go to a movie and be lazy and entertained. maybe i should go on break and meditate. i'm obviously in a no-output zone.